Writing Therapy

Research suggests that simply writing down 5 facts or sentences about yourself and the occurrences in your day each night will help with both anxiety and insomnia. These anecdotes could be trivial facts, deep thoughts and feelings, things you need to remember, or things you want to say to somebody else. Basically anything that is on your mind. Along with theories of sleep hygiene, this diary-entry like process intends to aid sleep by leasing your mind of worries, feeling of sadness, guilt and fear. This may or may not be successful for different people, but I like to think of the theory as evidence to the therapy that writing provides.

I don’t suffer with anxiety but I am a renowned insomniac, so here is mine:

1. I want to move to Italy.
2. At some point I really need to make a diary out of a human being again. Why is it so hard to change the habit of a lifetime? 
3. I need to cook Lucia’s dinners for the week before she gets home and I have been putting it off all day (I miss her). While I’m at it I should make hazelnut biscotti!
4. I learnt how to say ‘how are you’ in polish!!!!! JAK SIE MASZ! 
5. Friendship is like gold dust but only because you have to work hard to build and keep it. I don’t want to loose this one.
6. (there are no rules) American Horror Story is the most fucked up series I have ever watched but I have so much time to talk about it!!!

I am probably not going to fall asleep straight away now – but you get the jist. Adapt it, something along the same lines or slightly different could work for you. In my opinion, this will tell you a lot more about yourself than paying someone else to, read between the lines.

HAC London – Wonder Nights

I’ve been finding it really hard to continue writing – I am using the time of year as a scapegoat! Friday was my first work Christmas party held in the HAC Royal Artillery Rooms, London. The venue itself was amazing, themed like a circus/fun fair with dodgems (one of which I flew out of because my friends think it’s funny to come at me from 3 separate angles!!) old school photo booths, a candy floss stand, a random school bus, show-girl performances and the whole venue was decorated with millions and millions of lights.

The night started with a champagne reception followed by apple and raspberry cocktails. Drinks were paid for and an hour after arrival we were served a three course meal, which hardly anybody actually sat for for being on the dance floor and at the bar, but at some point I went back for dessert (milk chocolate mousse with white chocolate flakes, raspberry sauce and caramel snaps – happy girl).

I would definitely recommend for corporate events/Christmas parties. Although such a prestigious venue, the evening was very relaxed but exquisite and glamorous – perfect for such a magical time of year! Jay Gatsby eat your heart out!

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Injustice & Violence: Women

I tend to be an all or nothing sort of person so for the topics that I am passionate about I’m very passionate about, and the topics that I have little or no interest I don’t give the time of day. I have a keen interest in the movements and campaigns targeted against the domestic violence, gender violence and rape against women. I have to be very careful when discussing this issue but it is something I feel that needs constant public attention. I have spent some time over the past few years assisting in mental health wards and therapy institutions, where I worked with survivors and continuing sufferers of the above. Consequently, the prevention and after care for victims is something I try to keep up to date with, as there are always new campaigns and advisory committee’s being set up in the UK and globally.

Some of the accounts I heard first hand and on paper were harrowing to say the least, something that at first I believed I could handle. Listening to them got a lot easier but I remember how quietly some of the women spoke, it was almost like they didn’t have a voice. Spending time with them made me think about the things that helped them recover, about what they would need and what they responded to. Most of them wanted somebody to take them seriously, to show compassion or to listen to them, without judgement, someone to feel safe with. Those that were scared about their current situation would avoid talking about it at all, unless you were able to build a relationship with them in order for them to trust you.

Domestic violence, gender violence and rape doesn’t just affect you for the time period in which it occurs. The scars are timeless. Imagine building relationships with people after experiencing such hatred and brutality. Imagine the lowest levels of confidence and imagine the highest level of fear being vividly present in your daily life. Physically scars heal quickly, imagine trying to heal a character, nurturing someone back to who they were. For this reason I thoroughly invest in any platforms that are trying to help and raise awareness.

This is not an invitation to rape me

Obviously my experiences have only been inside the UK, but this is something that happens globally and in places where there is even less resistance, less protection, and a lot of neglect where injustice is merely a consequence of class, status and conflict. Awareness should be global for the benefit of all women.

Stop rape in conflict

from one beginner to another…stumbling on my way to good writing

Sometimes when I am trying to get my thoughts down onto paper I have no idea where to start because there can be so much going on in my head. I think about random things, and one topic is usually a trigger for another and my thought pattern can just spiral. For me, learning to turn writing into a skill was a challenge. I am confident in my abilities, but to actually discipline myself into producing concise and cohesive focal points was difficult and has taken me a lot of practice. Even now you will be lucky if the ending sentence of one piece has anything to do with the opening line (example: see this post).

However I have learnt that this is usually how writing goes, what gives it character and how it takes form. Like I mentioned in a previous post, it usually opens your mind to ideas and thoughts you didn’t know you had, which in theory is a good thing, but on paper can obstruct you getting your initial point across, and can hinder you from a professional point of view.
Consequently there are a couple of steps I take if I am writing articles or essays that I try to have in place to keep me on track.

Firstly, for articles I always try to forecast what the ending will look like. Although I continue to explore my own thoughts in the body of an essay, I like to think about how I will finish. I like to think specifically about a sentence I may use, or a unique way in which I can sum up my thoughts in relation to the initial idea. Having this in the back of your mind helps you to keep on task, however at the same time allows you some flexibility to remain open minded as you research new information or as other perspectives and opinions surface.
Secondly, I try to read as much of the supporting/opposing material as possible before I begin. It sounds pretty obvious but if you have all of that information behind you beforehand you are more likely to keep your initial stance, or if it does change half way through you are better equipped to deal with it. I have found in the past when evidence goes against the point I am trying to make especially if it is found whilst already writing, it is hard to come back from mentally as your opinion is no longer as strong in your own head, which can reflect in your evaluations. Background reading is key.

Writing poems is different, I’d argue that you need to let your thoughts flow, you don’t need to forecast an ending unless you know exactly what you want the poem to convey. Sometimes it’s a lot more fun just to see where you end up. I know a lot of other writers which have said they can use words solely for the purpose of rhyme. This doesn’t need to be the case. If you find that a poem you initially thought would be better in rhyme doesn’t form that way – it doesn’t matter. This is freestyle. There is a difference between rhyming because you want to say something and saying something because you want to rhyme. Similarly with different poem structures, if you specifically want to produce a haiku or sonnet etc then it may take a few attempts, but if you can’t, or it doesn’t come, don’t try to make it happen. Writing that comes naturally will be equally as natural for someone else to read.

Aside from disciplining myself, I had to learn how to be completely honest. You need to be confident in what you put down on paper. Words don’t need to be perfect, you don’t need to have perfectly formed sentences or paragraphs, more than anything you just need to trust your own judgement. Yes sometimes discipline helps, you need to develop your motivation and you need to practice like any other skill, but as long as what you produce is truthful, passionate and from the heart this will take you further than following instructions or rules.

I have probably talked myself into being a perfect example of going off-topic mid post, but I am learning every day how to nurture a craft through practice. In my worst summary ever, Yes – I have learnt that I need to discipline myself to perfect an end result, especially when writing articles and essays, but perhaps more importantly for me, that I write my best when I am being completely truthful. This is very hard for me to do even now. Sharing work you write in private is tough, but to post openly about your own feelings and experiences takes so much more. It leave you vulnerable, you have to have a lot of courage in what you feel, a sense of humour, zero ego, and give no fucks. If it is something you can sacrifice for the sake of other people reading your work you are already half way there.

Also I believe that what makes any writer better is the amount of time you spend alone. This is slightly unrelated but I feel something you have to be prepared to do. You need to know your own mind without clouding or overshadowing from anybody else. Once you have formed your own opinions, accepted your own strengths and weaknesses, your own feelings, you are free to use them as you please. For me the spending time alone part wasn’t hard, but to recognize my own strengths and weakness and use them as art was my mount Everest, but I suppose it depends on what sort of person you are. If you can/do write when you are alone, you write from where you stand, and it’s a reflection of who you really are, hence making for better (or maybe just more interesting/controversial reading).